A Moment of Doubt

I admit that I’m having a moment of doubt about the At Flood’s Edge project. It’s been idling along, but not really going anywhere. As everyone knows, it’s difficult to bring people in, and even more difficult to get people involved.  And these things take time, too.

I just finished writing a 900-word story that I think is quite good. And so I sit and wonder: am I wasting my time posting these stories here, where only a handful of people will see them and even less will vote? By posting them here, I burn the first publication rights. By posting them here, I make it difficult, if not moreso, to get the stories published. Is this thing that I am building here worthwhile? Or would I be better served by trying to publish the strongest of the stories I write? Getting even one publishered somewhere–online or off–would likely net vastly more eyes on that story than posting it here.

The difficulty in an on-going project like this is that I most both create and promote at the same time. Any time I spend doing one is time not spent doing the other.

Maybe this is just a phase and I’ll return to feeling gung-ho about the project and its future.

I’d love to hear your thoughts.

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3 Responses to “A Moment of Doubt”

  1. Karen January 23, 2010 at 6:57 pm #

    I commend you on having the bravery to share your writing with the world. Personally, I am still in the stage where I only show my works to a very limited circle because I don’t feel good enough. You raise a very solid dilemma that I believe many fledgling writers contend with, especially in an age where the ease of the internet can provide a free-and-easy way for people to be discovered. I would be hesitatnt about posting items I was particularly attached to, if it meant I was forfeiting my first publication rights. In these instances, my lack of trust in people forces my setting to “worst case scenario” (someone pilfers my hard work and manages to launch themselves in the limelight, thusly stealing my hopes and dreams and personal creative work). Then again, I am not too familiar with the market, or even how books/stories are published, so maybe I am not much help.

  2. R Canepa January 25, 2010 at 12:10 pm #

    Karen,

    Thank you very much for reading and commenting.

    Posting my stories here doesn’t mean I absolutely can’t publish them, but does make it harder. It pretty much depends on the publisher. I think the lack of an absolute yes/no makes the decision even more difficult.

    And your worst-cast scenario is mine, as well, and has prevented me from doing things in the past. I’m trying to get over it.